I’ve learnt that I should never evelr mind! I should not notice what other people get or not!!! I shd at most jst focus on if I get to eat enof or not! I feel full so fine
Just found out that inside the polythin packet of peanuts she also wrapped some cashews in paper carefully n tied with rubber so it’ll not get mixed and sent frm home!! Lv cashew mch
Do eyes talk?? Never eevr thought something like this about me!
A didi just said I just look so handsome In short! If I just dress up with the ‘ କଥାକୁହା ‘ eyes (eyes that can talk) that I’ve I can easily get atleast fifty girls! I’m like wow never noticed that!
In short someone called me their something favourite. I was told that I’m beautiful, I’m not really ugly, I was wished, I’m grateful! Children are so pure!! I should be grateful for everythin
Lets start! Left my place sobsob🎭She painted my nails! 💅Noice time Finallyyy Breaking fast!!Had water tooWaitin in long line Got!!ReturninWah wahIn short just wnt out and got it! 🙆♀️
Someone is silent, speaking so little, murmuring in slow tune, doesn’t mean that they don’t know the mantra . Someone who’s speaking loud; doesn’t mean that he or she knows the best,! Empty vessels sound so much, noises mean nothing
Sometimes people are so caught up in their own struggles that they can’t see the kindness around them,”.. “That doesn’t make your kindness worthless — it just means that they were probably too worried about their own days to notice your efforts.”
Empathy isn’t transactional — people in survival mode often can’t look beyond immediate needs, and kindness still matters even when unacknowledged.
Choosin kindness always, spontaneous kindness, even when it goes unseen mostly because the alternative — a world where we all just ‘end the ridee and move on’ — is far more expensive.
I just feel that after I die.. when I’m gone , a part of me will still live inside hearts of people who fr loved me, cared for me but I doubt in this life who really loved me? I believed if I love I’ll be loved! In hope I kept on loving but at the end left disappointed and tired! Still I don’t know how to not love for I’ve loved all my life so I now continue to love without any hope!! It’s fine if people don’t reciprocate! Nobody owes me! I’m just here! Sufferin in silence! Serve and love in life and afterlife
😒 as I’m growing I’m learning to take things casually not so seriously, but in childhood every little thing seems so heavy of a pain, remember that guest who just avoided you among other children, remember those relatives saying you how differently black you’re, remember those uncles touching you so differently now if someone will say anything do anything I’ll just shout to distract I’ll ignore I’ll do anything for my mind’s safety but then.,
When I was small I used to get said frequently ‘ ଗରିବର ସ୍ବପ୍ନ ସତ ହୁଏନି ‘ it roughly means that a poor man’s dream never come true but I didn’t believe it then now with time with all the blessings getting first division getting scholarship now entrances I’m like on the verge of like go up or down and I’ve realised it’s not easy, poverty hits the hardest not everyone can overcome everything and like we see yt people becoming succesful online like positive thing or negative tapes whatever it’s not everyone’s cup of tea and when you’ve nothing what to do, I just keep hoping for the best still.
I’ve realised that ideas, creativities don’t hit at every moment so I should collect at each moment I got it. Also when I was in school I loved mathmatics more but yes I was fairly well in other subjects and managed to clear scholarships plus first rank in final exam. Then I loved doing home chores, hardly used to get inspired towards extra activities still was good in physical science, life science, mil, geography, history etc so by default I was liking to write and do new things but not possible then. When I want to college it was a very vulnerable phase of life , you may say I was just stucked terribly. To add more illness, unhealthy environment, being mocked, no support in study and a lot more problems I’ll share for better some other day. So I just managed to pass with 75%+ but lack of practice thanks to the illness on the exam day and day before I just scored some sixty four in maths where I aspired for atleast a ninety score so I just felt very bad, the scores in other subjects really doesn’t matter to me. Again I got admitted for graduation now the part of maths is so small in my syllabus, so out of hundred now a big percentage is empty, how will I use it, that’s while I discovered that I should write as I really love it, I can share anything I wish from my illnesses to my achievements everything I can note down, I can record my journey for myself and also a whole box of other things I ve just realised that I really can do and enjoy, no idea now did I enjoy doing mathmatics to the same extent or not!? How to find out?)! So the overall efficiency of us human beings are just fixed but we fix our preferences, jobs according to the situation, the surrounding…
I’ve realised that ideas, creativities don’t hit at every moment so I should collect at each moment I got it. Also when I was in school I loved mathmatics more but yes I was fairly well in other subjects and managed to clear scholarships plus first rank in final exam. Then I loved doing home chores, hardly used to get inspired towards extra activities still was good in physical science, life science, mil, geography, history etc so by default I was liking to write and do new things but not possible then. When I want to college it was a very vulnerable phase of life , you may say I was just stucked terribly. To add more illness, unhealthy environment, being mocked, no support in study and a lot more problems I’ll share for better some other day. So I just managed to pass with 75%+ but lack of practice thanks to the illness on the exam day and day before I just scored some sixty four in maths where I aspired for atleast a ninety score so I just felt very bad, the scores in other subjects really doesn’t matter to me. Again I got admitted for graduation now the part of maths is so small in my syllabus, so out of hundred now a big percentage is empty, how will I use it, that’s while I discovered that I should write as I really love it, I can share anything I wish from my illnesses to my achievements everything I can note down, I can record my journey for myself and also a whole box of other things I ve just realised that I really can do and enjoy, no idea now did I enjoy doing mathmatics to the same extent or not!? How to find out?)! So the overall efficiency of us human beings are just fixed but we fix our preferences, jobs according to the situation, the surrounding…
For all these years of experiencing exams honestly one thing I’ve noticed that my marks secured depends more on my mental state during the exam hour than the thousands of study hours, preparations done in the whole year.
Can only a fair girl be a fair-y not a brown or black one only fair and even if she’s black be called as fairy then it’ll be mentioned before that a black fairy not just a normal fairy🧚🏿♂️
Speaking about myself I belong to a northeast state of Bharat, Odisha and I’m a proud sanatani girl, proud of our vaishnav lineage [ofcourse Lord Jagannath] , heritage. My family my mother has a magnificent dusky colur, I always say she has a Juhi Chawla face with Susmita Sen personality, Konkona Sen Sharma colour, she’s really gorgeous the most beautiful wonderful, ! I’ll describe more another day, she’s my angel though everyone else in her family except her are fair :+ genetic magic) my father is a fair person
and me I’m called fair :- no , I’m in between fair just for name sake but mostly brownish and there has been many instances just after birth , childhood and now that I’ve been bad mouthed by them: though I never wonder about their colour, I’ll depict and trymy best to heal myself from that pain in a best way other than conversion and yes I’m a proud 🧚🏽🧚🏾🧚🏿🧚🏽♀️🧚🏾♀️🧚🏿♀️🧚🏽♂️🧚🏾♂️🧚🏿♂️ :-+1 among you all, I love you all respectfully, please one request, be kinder to me and all & I promise to reciprocate the best way🌸🦩
the last three in each row depict me , you, we’re special, God gifted, thank you for making us feel special.
Pain: I think this word is synonymous to my life. More often I’m feeling like quitting, I’m tired but they , the surrounding, the situation will not permit me to have a rest. No pause physically but mentally I’m arrested long back. I want an escape from all this but no way only one final escape the final pause; you know that! Yes! That’s death, it cannot be natural when I welcome it myself, it’ll be artificial, induced and that’s a sin! More sin, more suffering and as they say that’s the most real, cruelest cause to why we suffer here. So this plan of mine and yours is of no value!!!! ‘Karma’ I see today: the bad karma done in the daylight results into ruining the night of that day::
So what to do ,,,
Accept , there is this family and fights inside it: I can’t change it, I can’t stop it so better try to accept with time, I think we should stop being too emotional, sentimental, you see! Theres no body alive for you when you cry, die at every moment so learn to tolerate their pain without going near to them! Nobody is born for me/you in this world) sometimes it’s exciting to fight with one’s fate but this poor fate what change it can bring when I’m victim of my own karma (past lives!) destiny is fixed, unchangeable! Is it or isn’t it?
Please hold back yourself from commiting something really bad to yourself, nobody cares, they’ll forget, you’ll be forgotten so why to loose yourself, I’m struggling to live, this journey is full of thorn, but I’ve faith in God and day by day it’s growing stronger, deeper making me strong. If you’re struggling in your journey then you’re not alone, all my love with respect ♡
did yesterday for today to officially meet all in 2022🦩Sri Gobinda year 🌸 ………………………………………………………… may you be blessed by (no of points)times by the Supreme Personality of Godhead Śrī Gobinda
first time I’m writing here today, it has been days that I’m here, installed it but never wrote, may be it’ll also disappear someday: lifeless without me, or it’ll not. So for the first time as it suggests it should be one special piece of paragraph and I’m hoped to give some introduction to myself but I believe if someone is reading this then we’re already familiar or else it’s just me writing plus reading) I feel I can’t connect when I want , but I’ll be made connected when the Lord want me to; afterall His choices, wishes win ‘ not ours , us. It’ll be amazing if His rules and my life totally coincide without any material indulgence,, so only fifty three minutes to go to end this year(eng) and to start a new year(calendar)✓ here I’m creating a mess not to wipe out or clean up again though I don’t know most of its features (( and now what should I say more! mobile is on battery saver 2% , and I’m planning still what the other things I’ve to do / finish in these fifty five minutes remaining. I’ve shared images of Radharaman ji to my Maa, she likes very much,,,,, and miraculously I’ve gotten an authentic wish card/greetings! which I’ll add here now to wish you all a happy God conscious new year ] in this era I believe spirituality is our only true accessory, the Supreme Lord is our only true friend 🌸
It reads a teaching via Dr. T.D. Singh — “The diversity of this world is a divine creation. We are the caretakers of this creation and not the owners. The more we realize our responsibilities in this regard, the more will we recognise that we are brothers and sisters of a common spiritual family.”
so brothers and sisters I hopefully pray and wish we will have the most postive year ahead in future {nearer<<nearest • thirty minutes} accept |mutual|my love with respect♡
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